Where can I go from your Spirit?
Or where can I
flee from your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, you are there;
if I make my bed
in Sheol, you are there.
-- Psalm 139:7-8
Do you have a personal picture of hell, not the eternal fire
kind, but hell on earth – somewhere completely divorced from hope and the
experience of God’s presence? For years, mine was the inpatient psychiatric
unit at the public hospital where I was a chaplain. Patients were locked away
for days or weeks. They had come from a fragile life. They would be discharged
on medication to a marginal existence, often to get off the meds and return to
the hospital. Visitors were rare. Could there be souls more lost?
When another chaplain began weekly worship there, I couldn’t
imagine what that would accomplish. Then he asked me to fill in while he was
away. I couldn’t say no, but how does one lead worship in hell?
I arrived with a CD of soothing music, a scripture I thought
might be comforting and an innocuous devotional, planning to close with the
Lord’s Prayer. The patients, many shuffling, began arriving after the music
started. I introduced myself and read my scripture. A few words into the
devotional, a patient called out a scripture – book, chapter, verse. To humor
him, I looked it up and read it aloud – a passage of great comfort. Another
person called out another book, chapter and verse – beautiful words of hope.
Over and over, they cited scriptures and I read. Where had these scriptures
come from – a long-ago Sunday school class, a parent or grandparent, someone in
a shelter? God’s word seemed to bounce off the walls in that forsaken place.
The room became quiet. Time for the Lord’s Prayer? A patient
called out, “Matthew 6:9” – the Lord’s Prayer. In awe, I led the prayer. As I
walked back to the chaplain’s office, my heart echoed the words, “Where can I
go from your Spirit?” Nowhere, not even in hell on earth.
God’s peace,
Katie
Incredible post!
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